(written Sunday, August 2, 2015)
We’re having twins!!!!!! November 7th. (Yes, as in, 3 very short months from now!)
I will start from the beginning….
About a month ago, I got a Facebook message from a good friend from my past. It said “Sarah, a friend of mine is having twins in November and is looking for a couple to adopt them. Are you interested?” TWINS!!! We were immediately so excited but also a little guarded at first; trying not to get too excited before anything actually happened. I wrote back and we set up a time to meet the birth mom.
Today was the day.
You should have seen me trying to pick out what I would wear for our meeting! (‘Is this mom-ish? Does this look like I’m ready for babies? Will this show her part of my personality? I can’t wear that, it has spaghetti straps!’) And then, I took a deep breath and realized that it’s not about my outfit or the fact that my house is still under construction and in need of some serious TLC. It’s about showing her Jesus. This isn’t actually about me. It can’t be about me because I will fail every time! It’s about Him and his plan for our family, this mama, and these babies that she is carrying.
We sat in church this morning before we had our meeting and our church sang the song “Beautiful Things” and then we watched people get baptized and I couldn’t help but think of and cry over these babies. Right then I knew that whether we got to raise these babies or not, that God would take all of the pain from their past and make beautiful things out of them and their lives. He is going to do something so special with these two.
The birth mom (I’m going to protect her name for now) and our mutual friend, Jill came over at 11am and it was like meeting with friends over coffee! We got to know each other. We talked about our lives, her three other kids, parenting, our stories, the story of how Caleb and I started dating, pregnancy, motherhood, real life. After about three hours of tears, laughs and conversation in-between, the birth mom said something like “I have been looking for a couple that I am comfortable with and that I connect with as a family to raise these babies. I like you guys and your personalities and I would love for you to be their parents.”
I needed immediate confirmation that what I thought I was hearing was actually what I was hearing so I jumped in and said “Are you saying yes to us right now?!” and she smiled and said “Yes!”!
I immediately jumped up, and held onto this sweet mama who CHOSE US! We cried together and just sat in that moment for a while.
Caleb cried, I cried (and screamed….because that’s what I do when I am excited!) and I think she got to know us even more in that moment.
Through our excitement, I thought about her and her heart that is struggling and in pain and over and over again I kept telling her how sorry I was that this is so tough for her. I can’t imagine.
I can’t imagine what she is going through.
She is a mom to three boys. She loves being a mom. She doesn’t want to do this but out of love for these babies, she IS doing this, not out of irresponsibility, but out of REsponsibilty to do what is best for them because the situation that she is currently in, isn’t best. She is so brave.
So, we are having twins, a boy and a girl, scheduled for a C-section on November 7th.
WOW!…..Here we go!!